For those 5 months

I have my own reason and I will never tell it. I learn it from the past, whatever the reason I said, you guys sure will make another story called shit. I am tired of telling my true reason now so... yeah, just make your own story about me. It's up to you I don't care anymore though.

It's nice to know you all. I have a great time and in the same time I got a seriously bad experiences of feeling. I'm sure you know what I am talking about.

So curious? Try guessing my reason. It's so simple even a monkey would know, so don't make it hard by making it a drama-trash like you all made my days hard and trash-like.

Love you all, take care.


Oh yeah once more,

I love my hobbies forever and you all loves yours too. I wrote "that" fucking real thing in general not in specific case. If the shoes fits then wear it. It's my right.

I come for this?

It have been 2 years and I log in to Dreamwidth just for that thing. Wow feel so guilty in many ways. Recently I found myself changed. I seem don't care about the internet access, feel so depressed about anything, think that I should stop do my what I like, and the worst one is I almost don't care about utaite and vocaloid anymore!! Just what the fuck with this change?!! I hate it so much that I cried my feeling out to my mom like an abnormal children who lost her common sense even though she have lost one (lol). My friends even said that I am like a weirdo because I didn't make a single joke when I was with them (yeah buddy it sounds so strange even I cries in laugh. The weird one is the normal one for us).

Well I think I am not ready for this and my mom try to understand. She said that she have some problem in financial too and it's perfect!

I canceled some of my pre-order, like figma and action figure, magazine, and vocaloP CDs. I can buy it anytime. Mom tell me to get car licence, but before that she wants me to learn more about her jobs. And she promise me will give a Xperia for my front of payment. Okay it's a deal.

Hmmm maybe I should tell mom to pay speedy bill so I can have full internet access at home. I can't wait.